October 2008
1 post
Peyton
I miss her. She used to refer to herself as Peyton. There’s just something in her, I can’t figure it out. No matter how hard i try, I can’t get her out of my head. It’s like she’s always going to be there. Even if I’m in love with someone, she’s still there.
June 2008
1 post
7 months after
I forgot my last entry, im still drinking, but not yet have i gotten drunk. i guess that better.
So its been 7 months after i last poured my heart out here. Yes, this is something big. I hope it all subsides, the pain.
We’ve been doing well, just not today, not tonight, i guess not tomorrow nor the next day after tomorrow. It’s ended. Yes. I can accept it. Though there’s that...
January 2008
4 posts
note to self
last night will be my last drinking session. The only next inuman I shall allow myself to drink is on dea’s bday!!
my only and last song for ......
Share with me the blankets that you’re wrapped in Because its cold outside, its cold outside Share with me the secrets that you kept in Because its cold inside, its cold inside And your slowly shaking fingertips show that you’re scared like me So let’s pretend were alone And i know you may be scared And i know we’re unprepared But i dont care Tell me, tell me what makes...
i finally understood
you see i had this first post right? about this one person who was screwing my head, who wont get the fuck out of my head. Its like i wanna kill myself whenever she’s in my head, but if i did that then id kill myself everyday. SO now I think I finally understood why im so caught up with her. Why she hits my pride every so often. SHE IS MY KARMA. My karma for all the playing ive done with...
2008
happy new year. I told myself i wont drink again, as if. I had the worst hangover on new years day itself. what a great start??haha. but hell yeah, its another year, somehow things move faster as you get older. Or does it happen because of too many worries too many things caught up in your head? ull never know but it sure gets faster. Cant wait for med. Cant wait. =) Happy birthday to Nino! hes...
December 2007
2 posts
I LOVE YOU
JANE YOU ARE MY HEART!
after 2 months
Ok, a lot has happened. My brother is so much better. My genetics exam was harder than I expected. I’ve applied for my majors, its not genetics mind you. I hope I chose right. But its just my majors, med is all that matters to me academically. anyway, my mom has been pretty busy with her salon, the busiest among us all. I have not done any shopping watsoever for the Christmas season. After...
November 2007
2 posts
stupid Lester Grinspoon
Ok,so I read a couple articles of some people who consider marijuana as a good thing. You know what their main reason was? It helped them during their problems. During depressing times. It took them away from reality. AWAY from reality. No matter how smart Lester Grinspoon is, he is turning himself from reality. His own dying son. God gives us problems to overcome. Problems are to be handled. Not...
my brother is a weed addict
I think the problem with weed addicts is that they will never consider themselves as addicts. They are so dumb. They say, oh its just a longing for this or that, its just for fun. But when you think about it, they can’t live a day without smoking weed. What the fuck is that??? is that not addiction you morons. Also the main problem with drug addicts, there is something psychologically wrong...
October 2007
7 posts
hard to express
Yesterday was a crappy but one of the most happiest days in my academic life. So in the morning I had my removals in Calculus, I couldn’t screw up my second chance, so I took all my time in studying, and I think it paid off. I knew I gave it my best, I hate math, I hate it and it screws up my brain more than any other subject. hehehe. but I’ll get results on tuesday. Then I stumbled...
nawawala na din
I’m getting my micro classcard tomorrow, and checking up on my calculus removals. Its gonna be tense. So many already failed calculus. Anyway, after that, I’m going to meet up Jane at EK. Wow. We’ve been tested by time, it’s been a week since we’ve seen each other. I thought we’d be spending more time this sembreak than when she and I has school. Then we used to...
pagod na daw sha
We broke up this morningm, but its us again. I still can’t walk away. just so I dont forget one of the most hurtful lines that’s been said to me: “Hindi na kita maramdaman.Napapagod na din ako hanapin ka. Napapagod nako magmahal sayo.” That hit me like a stone. But thanks sa BOT3 AB-3L!!! I was intoxicated with alcohol and very busy with the drunk people.hahahaha. IT was a...
ok ka lang?
YOU SAY THE WORD YOU KNOW I WILL FIND YOU OR IF YOU NEED SOME TIME YOU KNOW I DON’T MIND I DONT HOLD ON TO THE TAIL OF YOUR KITE I’M NOT LIKE THE BOYS THAT YOU’VE KNOWN BUT I BELIEVE I’M WORTH COMING HOME TO……. no matter how many times you hurt me, I will not give up on you. I love you too much. To myself, I’m so sorry I don’t know how to give up, I...
before my chem40 finals
It is 5:00 am. I woke up yesterday at 10:00 am, wen to my mom’s opening, I was assisting the shampoo girls, who were my cousins.hahaha.But it was fun. But I lost like 8 hrs, which I could’ve utilized for studying. But I just had to support my mom. I had to have my hair cut, though I did not want to. It was another form of my support. Thanks a lot Master Chau of Feng Shui, my hair is...
momma's salon
Lesson learned yesterday: Remember the real schedule of your exam! I actually scheduled Archie, Dada and myself for the 1:00 - 1:30 pm timeslot of the move system exam but yesterday, when everyone was asking me what time my exam was (they were hoping for some tips / leakage from me), I casually replied, “1:30 pa chong” Good thing I told myself to go early, for some leakage(...
This is my secret
I learned from a UP friend about this site. No advertisements, nothing pesty and irritating. Just what I needed. I am someone ofcourse. But I just can’t say my name here. hahaha. This is my secret. My secret blog. Where I can just speak. Because, like this blog right here. I keep many things to myself. And I know that’s not very nice. Just so I don’t forget myself, I’m a...